SLIMMER'S DIARY
End of Week 16 - 11 stone 9 pounds - gained 5 pounds since last report
(down one pound from initial weigh in).
I am surpised that my weight is up. Not because I have been sticking to the diet
very well, but I have been feeling slimmer. Some friends even said that I looked
like I must have lost a stone - NOT! Desperate for something to wear, and hopeful
that I was a bit thinner, I pulled a bag of clothes our of storage. I was able to
squeeze into the jeans I had that were the next size down from the size I have been
wearing. Result! I was also able to fit into some nice dresses and a business suit
that before now I was bulging out of. But no weight loss. Must be those cruches I did
one morning last week.
I felt really great out dancing in my lovely summer dress - sleeveless even!
Then those old thoughts started creeping back to sabotage me. Thoughts probably at
the heart of my difficulty to stick to any weight loss and fitness programme. Like
most teenagers I had trouble when boys started to show an interest in me. I handled
it by hiding. Really hiding -- staying home and avoiding social situations -- and
hiding my attractive self under pounds of extra weight. As a young woman I'd use
the same tactic. At any point when I started to lose weight and get more looks (and
even some cat calls) on the street I'd retreat back to my fat - and safe - self.
I'm married now - with two kids, so I thought this issue was well behind me,
but then it came flooding back. Of course people are going to look at you "that
way" no matter how slim or heavy you are, or if you are married or single - but how
do you handle it? Work on building self confidence and deal with it or retreat
under an overweight and unhappy self?
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You can view previous questions and answers in earlier weeks of The Slimmer's
Diary:
Initial Weight In - 11 stone 10 pounds
End of Week 1 - 11 stone 5 pounds
End of Week 2 - 11 stone 12 pounds
End of Week 3 - 11 stone 6 pounds
End of Week 4 - 11 stone 6 pounds
End of Week 5 - 11 stone 11 pounds
End of Week 5 - 11 stone 11 pounds
End of Week 7 - 12 stone
End of Week 10 - 11 stone 4 pounds
End of Week 15 - 11 stone 4 pounds
To all of my viewers, let us know how you are doing with your stuggle to be slim!
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