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SLIMMER'S DIARY
See Initial Weight In - 11 stone 10 pounds
See End of Week 1 - 11 stone 5 pounds
See End of Week 2 - 11 stone 12 pounds
See End of Week 3 - 11 stone 6 pounds
See End of Week 4 - 11 stone 6 pounds
See End of Week 5 - 11 stone 11 pounds
See End of Week 7 - 12 stone
End of Week 10
11 stone 9 pounds - 4 pounds lost since last entry weeks ago, 1 down from initial weigh in.
Once again, sorry there hasn't been an entry in a few weeks. Thanks if you've been sticking with
me anyway. There has been a lot to think about over this time. I've not been able to get the motivation
to get really serious about this diet. I am cutting back in some areas - using light butter (but putting
a bit on), trying to avoid chocolate (still indulging now and then), etc.
Whenever I've been on an "eating plan" before, I seem to go through the same pattern:
gung-ho, following the plan to the letter -- maybe even getting some exercise
one slip and maybe back on
another slip and then struggling to get back on
"Why ME?!"
Why can't I eat whatever I want? Why can't I enjoy the traditional Irish breakfast without guilt?
Why can't I have loads of real mayonnaise on my turkey sandwich?!!!
Of course, this thinking is not going to help. The fact is I can eat whatever I want if I am
prepared to gain more and more weight and put my health at risk. As I have found in the past weeks, if I
cut back a bit I may retain this weight, but I am definitely not happy as I am now.
How do you see yourself -- your body image? I don't look at myself very closely in the mirror,
blur out the bits I am not happy with and go on. I don't imaging that I am thin -- but I don't feel as
big as I really look. Then there are the times when you are forced to see how you really look:
Changing rooms - I avoid shopping for new clothes until I am desperate, then always have a major
bout of depression after seeing my nude body in the big mirror. It doesn't help that I can't find
anything that fits properly or is flattering at all.
Medical checkups - The doctors have seen it all and there are probably a lot worse than me, but
I find it really embarrassing that I haven't gotten off those "baby" pounds and all the other pounds
beside.
Family pictures - You would have to look hard to find pictures of me and my children. This is very
sad to me, because I would love to have a great photo of the whole family, but I am never happy with
how I look in these pictures.
Even worse, home video - my husband borrowed a cam corder to tape our kids for the family abroad.
A-broad was my backside in all of the shots I was in and, believe me, I tried to stay out of it as best
I could. I thought that was one of my flattering outfits!
Shouldn't this be enough incentive to get me back on the eating plan and down to the swimming pool?
Seeing that video did really get to me -- will it be enough?
Continue to other weeks:
Initial Weight In - 11 stone 10 pounds
End of Week 1 - 11 stone 5 pounds
End of Week 2 - 11 stone 12 pounds
End of Week 3 - 11 stone 6 pounds
End of Week 4 - 11 stone 6 pounds
End of Week 5 - 11 stone 11 pounds
End of Week 5 - 11 stone 11 pounds
End of Week 7 - 12 stone
End of Week 10 - 11 stone 4 pounds
End of Week 15 - 11 stone 4 pounds
End of Week 16 - 11 stone 4 pounds
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